I am catching up with posting online my articles.
So lately my process ( especially my assignments of the Desteni I Process course ) are going very slow as I have to dedicate a lot of my time to work. You'll know... before I had more time for myself and I could really get things done but seeing that this slow pace has been going on for some time now then I have said to my friend that I wish that all could be going faster.
You'll know... not a big deal. Seeing that I don't do things as fast as I used to do in the past I wish that I could have more time to do my assignments faster and thus move forward with my process. But then my friend said: "be careful what you are wishing for !".
Then I thought about it for half a day and I said to myself: "fcuk... fcuk... fcuk..." asI have realised that I was on the "train" which would take me to the "station" on which my process would go really fast.
But you'll see... fast process does not mean pleasant and easy. Look... one of the best ways to accelerate somebody's process is by getting sick as then you are being pushed to the wall and you have no choice but to face and change yourself. But this is also a dangerous path. And the reason for it is that you are being "flooded" with many things, which are supposed to help you to speed up your process ( as you wished ). Though there is a risk that if you do not transform the things as they come in an instant then you may be overwhelmed by it and you may even die as there is no margin for errors.
But luckily my friend pointed it out to me and now I have the chance to slow down and "stop" the train relatively easy as it has not gained yet the speed and momentum. I have written many times in my articles about the express train which is very difficult to stop once it is going at full speed. And so this is practical example of how this train starts to move at the first place and then how to stop it and get out of it before it will be too late.
And so this is why I said "fcuk" because I could see my future and this was nothing that I would like to experience for myself. At least not now. So knowing of what could happen for me in the future ( getting sick ) I can make the decision to continue with the pace that I am walking now ( although it seems to be slow ), stabilise myself within it and walk steady forward. And once I am ready I can decide to go faster.